~stratosphere dreams~

i've got all of them here.
i'm ready to launch.
into the stratosphere
they will climb, until they can climb no more.
balloons in the dozens;
strings hold keep them in grip
and i hope they won't slip.
i'm not ready to do it,
but i've promised myself.
i'll let them go as soon as possible.
it's just i'm waiting for the right minute.
i hear the wind upcoming.
closed my eyes and whispered, 'Lord please'.
in a split second, they were all gone.
like a crowd after a gunshot,
they scattered into the blue
and soon resembled ants.
i peeled open my eyelids and saw them
running away without looking back.
no hesitation did they express.
no second thoughts did they think.
i wasn't sure if they would float,
for they were not just helium.
inside were notes to someone;
to anyone who has bravery;
the bravery that i don't possess.
three weeks passed without a peep.
another week and nothing new.
my phone sat silent.
my mailbox remained empty.
how could no one have received one?
after the first month,
i was convinced;
no one listens.
ten years passed and i had already forgotten.
this wasn't something that happens often.
one day the door bell rang;
the alarm of a presence sang.
i opened the door and there she happened to be.
a woman with my letter and a smile made of teeth.
it finally happened that day.
it finally went my way.
ten long years until this moment.
this day, i was actually wanted.